Full Moon

As I stare at the full moon out from my window I start to think of the many things it could mean to me. I could wish on it like you see in movies, think it is creepy, or just sit here and admire it. Well I sort of did 2 things 1st off I of coarse made several wishes on it and now I'm just admiring it as I write. So today I woke up at actually a decent hour for some strange reason cause I didn't go to bed till 3 AM in the morning. My little brother skipped school after the awards thing they had. Then I found my mom's cell phone in the living room and called to let her know that. Well she then asked if I want to come into town and give it to her then go to Lowes with her to look for a dryer. Our dryer is going out and we need a new one but do we get a new one....no my dad is just buying a new motor for it instead. Well it is good that he rather fix something than just go out and buy another one. Anyways so I got Mark and we went into town and had lunch and looked at Lowes. Oh yea we looked then my dad decide not to get the dryer. Mark and me then headed to Target to look for me another purse. Yes I know I shouldn't buy another purse. I can hear Mike (Choda) laughing now cause I bought another purse. The reason I bought a new one is because the purse that I have right now my lovely hand sanitizer decide to spill in the purse. Hey at least my stuff is germ free!!! I finally found one I liked at Mervyns so I got that. It is pink and with a black strap. I like my new purse!!! Then got my car washed (it was dirty big time) and headed home to switch dressers. So I cleaned mine out while Mark did the same. Then I vacuum that part of the room and we switched. My room looks different now with a new dressers but I like it though. Tomorrow we switch desks oh what fun that will be. Guess what I did tonight as well? I made dinner for the family. Yea yea I help my mom out with it but I rarely do cook everything. I even cleaned the freakin kitchen too. My mom and me walked again tonight exercise is good. Now I'm sitting here and wondering where the beautiful full moon went?? I think it is suppose to rain it sure did look like it was going to outside. So yea now I want to go to bed early for once but can't cause I told 2 people that I would be on later. Damn it don't make promise you know you can't keep. Ok enough talk for me I'll watch TV. Lata

Sexy babes!! (SA and me) 

Yes I drank that whole thing of Jagermeister by myself in 1 night!! No I did't puke either! Go Me!! 

I'm with Stupid (Jamie) I love ya girl!! 

When parties go bad look what happens!! That is my finger too. 

I swear I'm not passed out!! 

Crazy Gangsta's (yea right) 

The Gang!! (me,Stephanie,Heather,Shelly, and Stefanie) 

Stephanie,Heather, and me 

So Yesterday

Ok so today was very eventful I woke up early to go to the dentist w/ my mom. Then after the dentist we went looking for furniture that I need for in the house this summer. After that we headed to my grandmother's house but as we call her Shoo Shoo. Yes that is right I'm not going to explain why we call her that just ask me later. Anyways my mom and me cleaned her living room and that took us like 2 hours to clean. The room isn't even big it was just dirty and had junk in it that she didn't need. My grandmother is a pack rat yes a major pack rat. So after doing all that I returned home to help my mom cook dinner. We looked in the paper for garage sells that are going on in the morning. So guess what I get to do bright and early 2morrow?? But hey it is all for me. Then I get to return to Shoo Shoo's house to clean more of her house. Oh yea my aunt and like my second aunt are there too helping us. Well actually there are remodeling her bathroom. So yea that was my eventful day. Now I'm here in my room all clean and showered ready to go to bed. But before I do I had to find my medicine that I thought I lost, right my thoughts down cause I had another anxiety attack again (this time in the shower), and dwell on the fact that I have a very boring life. So yea I need more sleep, no stress (ha like that will ever happen again), and a life. I'm out lata.

Days Go By

Ok so what do you do when there is this guy that you use to like but you don't like him anymore, and he still wants to be with you? You see I have this guy friend, well he is more like one of my best guy friends, and we use to like each other but now I don't feel the same yet he does feel the same. I've told him that I don't feel the same yet he still pushes. What the freak can I do to tell him that I don't want him like that anymore? I've told him and he knows but yet somewhere he thinks that we can still get back together. Umm I'm sorry once you hurt me there is no turning back. He even has a girlfriend that is of the last time I talked to him he did. He still cares for her and loves her but what the heck is up with me still. Get over me for Pete's sake!!Ok well except for Mike he did rip my heart and stomp on it last year but I forgave him cause I was soo that into him. Anyways if anybody knows what to do let me know. Ok so what do you do when there is this guy that you use to like but you don't like him anymore, and he still wants to be with you? You see I have this guy friend, well he is more like one of my best guy friends, and we use to like each other but now I don't feel the same yet he does feel the same. I've told him that I don't feel the same yet he still pushes. What the freak can I do to tell him that I don't want him like that anymore? I've told him and he knows but yet somewhere he thinks that we can still get back together. Umm I'm sorry once you hurt me there is no turning back. Ok well except for Mike he did rip my heart and stomp on it last year but I forgave him cause I was soo that into him. Anyways if anybody knows what to do let me know. Yes he does still have a girlfriend tha tis last time I talked to him he did. He still cares and loves her so what the heck is he still hooked on me then. Get of me for Pete's sake!! Anyways I keep going to bed late and waking up late too. I really need to stop that I'm making a bad habit of it. I found out today Stefanie got a job offer for a job that she interviewed at in Richardson. I'm really happy for her but now she doesn't know if she is going to live with me this summer. So that like totally ruins my summer plans. If she doesn't live with me I can either still live there or just move home again. There are good things about moving home and there are bad things. I'm not going to list all of them but a part of me wants to move home for one last summer then another part wants to experience living without them for one summer. I want to be able to have fun with my friends for once and not hear about all the parties they go to and the fun they have w/o me. So yea that just adds to my stress. I haven't heard from Mike in awhile but that is ok I'll eventually hear from him. I haven't even talked to Jason in I don't know when I still miss him and I don't care if he knows that either. I would tell him straight up right now if I could but yea I'm not going to. This has been an interesting week and it isn't over yet. Hey Star Wars comes out tomorrow go watch it!!! Anyways I'm going to clean the kitchen then go to bed early 2nite. Lata

2 Free Weeks

Well school is finally over with and I'm so glad. I get 2 weeks off and then back to school for summer school. I can't wait til I move into the house in Sherman also. I hope this will be a summer to remember. I did pretty well on my classes this semester too. Except for the 2 D's I got but those were my hardest classes. At least I didn't fail anything right? Oh and I got through awhole semester without Mike!! Ok well I don't count seeing him for like 2 days before spring break, but still I enjoyed that though. So I have 8 months left til I graduate and can't wait. I'm goin 2 make it I'm determined too. Enough about school since I've been home I have done absolutely nothing except sleep late and clean a little. I need to start figuring out what I need to take back up 2 Sherman with me next weekend. I get a double bed instead of a queen but a double is better than a twin. I have to help my mom clean my grandmothers house this Friday oh so not looking forward to that. But I will say if there is anything she isn't using I can take. You know I was thinking the other day and I thought man I do want to stay home this summer but then I want to be with my friends as well. But I need independence and I think everybody does once in there life. Get away from your parents, don't date anybody for awhile, live by yourself. It's almost been a year since Mike broke up with me and I'm still doing ok. Yea I still talk to him and haven't dated anybody since but I still have fun though. I'm sort of living by myself this summer granted my best friend is living with me but her fiance is like 5 min away so she'll be with him a lot. I'll be 6 hrs away from my parents and I sort of like that and sort of not. I have to pay for everything and cook for myself which I don't care about the cooking part. The paying part I'm not looking forward too. I need to find a job plus I'll be taking 12 hrs of summer school too. Hey I've worked and gone 2 school at the same time before and still made good grades so I know I can do it. I want to have a summer to remember like I said before I think I will though. Well it is late and I need to go to bed I guess. Lata

Bad or Good Week??

Don't you just hate it when you think you are going to have a good week then it goes bad? Well that would be my week. I really don't remember Monday that much but I'm pretty sure it didn't go good. Tuesday I went to my classes and then I had to miss my best friend get inducted into our sorority for alumnae. Then in my lovely night class the paper my group wrote which I thought we would get a good grade but did we....no. My teacher wrote all over it. I will say thought that we got a good grade on our presentation though. So that happened and Wednesday we had extra band practice ohh that was nice. I went to my house in Sherman and took some of my stuff there. Came back and I guess the rest of that day went ok. Then Thursday comes and I go and ask one of my teachers if 1 of my summer classes is going to transfer. Umm that would be a no. So I had to rearrange my schedule so I can take a different class this summer and take the other 1 in the fall. On a happy note though I get to move into the new dorms that they are building if they finish them on time. I had my last band concert last night. Yay!!! Then this morning I get up early and go see if my advisor is there so she can sign off on me getting into the class I need this summer so then I can get stamped in. Well she wasn't there so I'll try again on Monday. I went to 1400 and KKY was suppose to sing did we....no. So I went for no freakin reason. Then as I was taking a nice nap my dad calls and bitches me out. Saying "Have you done this?, you need to do this"..on and on!! So I went and checked for the things. Well found out that I can't register for Grayson til June 6 and classes start the 7th. OH boy what else can happen?? Maybe I'll have a good weekend. I haven't talked to Mike in I don't know when and I even haven't talked to Jason either. I say screw guys right now they can just kiss my ass. I'm tired of going after the guy and getting a weak ass response. So now I'm going to wait for the guy to want me. But I do wonder if they think about me cause I surely do think about them. It has been really weird not talking to Jason this week. I miss talkin to him and his friends, I love hanging out with them and talking to them. But I guess I'll live we'll talk eventually I hope. Oh and I know everybody agrees with me that the schools food is getting worse and worse day by day. I'm just so sick of school and this town. I can't wait to go home for awhile then live in Sherman. Only 8 months left of school then I'm out!!! Ok enough of bitching I'm out. Lata